Wednesday, September 8, 2010

I'm In Love


With Hank!
I wished for 9 months I was having a girly, even after I knew I was having a boy. Scott and I would shop for baby Hanks clothes and furniture and I always would end up in the girly section looking for stuff for Trixie who I knew wasn't coming but
the moment Hank arrived and he was taken to his little station to be cleaned and weighed and measured and he just looked over at me with those sad blue eyes wondering how I could ever have taken him from his cozy womb to this cold, crazy, scary place called earth, I knew I was in love and I don't think I ever felt so emotional. I felt that instant love with my girls but it was just different with Henry. Maybe it was because he was my first and only son, or maybe because I had waited so long for his arrival, or it was looking at Scotts face knowing how long he had waited to be a father, I don't know, but whatever it was, I cannot describe the emotions I felt seeing this tiny baby boy of mine for the first time.
Tons has happened in my life over the last 4 years, to much to write and most of you reading this probably already know the most important parts but a lot happened in between to get me were I am now. It's been rough at times but so worth the wait and payoff.